Below are the most recent 6 friends' journal entries.

Thursday, December 17th, 2009
crowdedvine	7:19p	Quick thoughts while listening to hipster music and procrastinating on packing Passion Pit and Dirty Projectors. YES. San Diego tomorrow. Depression hurts. ...sleepyhead. Problems don't stop relationships. Not talking about them does. C'mon now, love. Screw your head on right. I hate flying. I really hate flying. Are you scared they won't like me? That I won't like them? That they'll judge you because of me? That I'll judge you because on them? That I'll screw up? Please tell me. ...am apparently a better Super Mario Wii player than you. Fuck yeah! If I were as cool as my roommates, holy shit my life would be different. I am officially a transfer student. I withdrew from SU today. I will be burying my feel in soil and my head in canopies. I am sadly apathetic. Death Valley trip over break. Like the cross country road trip only waaaaay shorter. I'm working on the itinerary instead of packing. I fear I'm doing the same thing that Sam did last year. Running away from home. I don't want to go home, but I don't want to be here. I don't want to be anywhere I know, because the familiarity is terrifying. I want to be geographically lost so I can figure out why it is I feel mentally lost. Does that make sense? I wish my wine would get colder faster. Listening to Owl City makes me feel like I'm in the Holy Names rehearsal black box getting ready for the Winter Concert playing Something Corporate on the piano. My computer's screen broke off today. Duct tape? You're right. I'm miserable. I'm just too stubborn to admit it. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 16th, 2009
crowdedvine	10:51a	I DO NOT REMEMBER WHAT FINALS FEEL LIKE BEING AN ACTING MAJOR IS SO MUCH BETTER THAN THIS CRAP! (I'll take that back when I'm done with today.) (Comment on this)
Monday, December 14th, 2009
fornoraison	10:40p	LAst year I was going ape-shit come finals...this year I am floating, kinda working...butnot really....which scares me because if I keep this up I won't do well.....but I'm just not stressin....some would say that's a good thing last year passion and butterflys this year comfort and casual things change so much in one year i love college, baked cookies for two hours today with the culinary club (Comment on this)
Friday, December 11th, 2009
fornoraison	2:43a	sooooo i'm in this very strange in between phase which i've never really been in before it's very fascinating usually i am the type of girl who focuses on one person i don't do anything until i've moved on and when i am with someone or have a crush on them i have only eyes and thoughts about them and YET here i am in the in between simultanesouly trying to let go of Chad while starting to date Dave I facebook stalk one and then the other I think about one for awhile and then the other It is so strange I don't think I love Chad anymore, i mean a part of me always will of course, but not in the same way, and yet the abrupt end to everything still rubs me the wrong way and saddens me. I think it derives mostly from the circumstances of everything rather than him himself. And i am liking Dave now, thinking about him more, smiling when he texts/calls/facebook chats, wanting to go hang out when i have so much work to do. its like a tag in tag out situation, as Chad begins to fade, Dave begins to brighten i really really really don't want to be a girl that jumps fromm guy to guy, relationship to relationship, and i told Dave i was not looking for anything but casual everynight when my roomate asks about him and i'm like "yea he texts me everyday" or "we went out to dinner again and he won't let me pay" or "he always asks how my day is" she respond with "you guys are dating" and i always deny deny deny with a big "no, no, no, no" but the other night when i asked him how his day was and he responded "honestly, its been rough, a friend from highschool died in a car crash today" i immediately went over to his place, all his housematre know me and say hi, and we just hung and talked and statements like "next time we do this and this, or when we go to this and this" were being droped it hit me......when i got back at around 2am i opened the door and the first thing i said to my roomate was "we're totally dating" how the hell did that happen? (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, December 10th, 2009
fornoraison	2:54p	december 10th 2009 today would hypothetically be my one year anniversary with chad i can't believe we didn't make it it was so short lived i never expected to be alone today how things can change... (Comment on this)
Monday, December 7th, 2009
fornoraison	1:27a	tonight was amazing my first hype mime show i love the mimes so much its so fun and creative and wonderful the people are fantastic and inspirational and hilarious its such a tight nit group i don't even mind that i had to wake up at 7 to run tech all day elevator (the skit i was in) went soooo well everybody laughed and loved it and i have such good friends i am so incredibly lucky, they all came to support and my mom flew out chad did not show, and it makes me sad that we are not friends and that iwill alwyas be his EX, you know? but i have to count my blessings and know that i am loved by so mnay different people went to formal with dave last night he is so sweet to me and he came to the show i'm really not looking for anything right now but i'm just gonna go with it and see what happens i do like him,its different though, its not passionate butter fly things, but its fun and interesting so for now that's all i really need (1 Comment |Comment on this)